Wednesday, June 30, 2010
I guzzled down so many glasses of lemonade today. It was kind of ridiculous. The weather was soo perfect. It wasn't hot or cold. There was just the right amount of wind to give you a cool breeze every now and then. It was just beautiful but somehow no matter where I went I just kept getting thirsty. I had raspberry lemonade at the restaurant and then we walked past some place that was selling strawberry lemonade and I had to have that too. I just couldn't help myself and It was soo good! I started thinking about how in life, In the past, I always seemed to want more when it came to natural thing like clothes, shoes, books or whatever but, the point I'm trying to make is that everything on this Earth is Temporary! Yes, your body needs water (not lemonade ;) to survive. You have to keep refueling to maintain your health and that's how I feel about the word of God. I've been going back and reading scriptures that I thought I knew everything about but, then when I read it again I realize that I missed out on something. Stay thirsty for God! This is not our home and you can't take any of your material possessions with you. Yes, it may suffice or please you for a little while but not for long. I got this dress a couple of months ago and I just had to have it but now I don't care too much for it. I'm learning a lesson everyday. Don't spend too much money on frivolous stuff because it's not what's important. Living a life that's pleasing to God and making it to heaven is what matters! It's so wonderful to know that when we finally get to heaven, we won't need all of this extra stuff! Continue to stay thirsty for the Lord and seek him before everything else. So, here is my favorite scripture for the day-
John 4:13-15 KJV
13Jesus answered and said unto her, Whosoever drinketh of this water shall thirst again: 14But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life. 15The woman saith unto him, Sir, give me this water, that I thirst not, neither come hither to draw.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Monday, June 28, 2010
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Friday, June 25, 2010
She didn't slow her steps until she was sure that he hadn't followed her. She looked both ways before entering a Subway restaurant that was on the street corner. While she was running she realized how she had recognized the voice of the stranger. It was Justin. Her Justin. This was impossible. Justin was a cop? She wondered why his occupation never came up during any of their conversations. She had never thought to ask. She shook her head and took a seat by the window. It was a small world. She would have never thought that he would be a cop. Cops were pathetic and weak in Shanadoah City. All they did was stand by and watch as innocent people were mugged and killed everyday. The criminals ran the City and everyone knew it. He was definitely not the person she thought he was but somehow she still felt embarrassed by her actions. If he recognized her, which he hadn't let on then he probably thought she was some kind of lunatic. She didn't want to explain things to him so she had kept running. He couldn't help her anyway. Nobody could...
He parked his car in the alley and made his way to the restaurant. She was so predictable. Why was he even going in to talk to her. He probably shouldn't but for some reason he felt drawn to her. Almost as if he were responsible for her. She couldn't take care of herself, of that he was sure. She would only be a problem to him. He stopped half way down the alley and began making his way back to his car. He was strict on keeping his personal life and business separated but he owed her an explanation. He didn't have to tell her everything so he wouldn't. He would just give her enough to pacify her and make her give up on this ridiculous search of hers. He turned and made strides to the front of the restaurant. He spotted her as he pushed open the door. He pretended not to notice the sharp intake of her breath and the eye rolls she directed at him. He pulled up a chair and tried to maintain his patience. He recalled a scripture his mother would say before she passed away. It was one of the few things he remembered about her. Before he began he said the scripture to himself -A soft answer turneth away wrath: but grievous words stir up anger. "I apologize for what just happened. It wasn't the way I envisioned our first encounter." Her facial expression seemed to relax and she unfolded her arms and with a straight face, she replied, "So, you didn't come here to arrest me?" He wondered for a moment if she was being sarcastic. Obviously she was trying to be difficult but he wouldn't let it get to him. He explained to her that he was only doing his job. "Can you give me a break, woman?" He watched as she studied him. "I certainly gave you one considering the fact that I was the one assaulted in broad daylight." That brought on a chuckle from her. " I guess I can do that." she responded. She placed her hands out on the table and leaned forward. That had to be a good sign, he thought to himself. He loosened his tie just as he felt the vibration go off in his right pocket. He sucked his teeth and immediately stood up. "I'm sorry I have to go, duty calls." She looked a little disappointed but he couldn't be sure. "I'd like to call you tonight, if that's okay?" She gazed up at him before responding, "I'd like that very much." He was a bit shocked but relieved at her response. He knew he had to run. Someone was in trouble and he couldn't be late. He turned and and walked out of the restaurant towards his car that was parked in the alley. The engine started when he was within 10ft. He hit the yellow button beside the steering wheel which sent the car soaring ahead. Today was turning out to be not so bad after all. He took through the dark alleys of Shanadoah City once again, eager to face whatever dangers awaited him...
Thursday, June 24, 2010
I'm buggin out right now because normally I would be at the ALA Conference in DC. around this time of year but due to my brother's wedding I'm missing it :( tear! I love going to those conferences but oh well! My brother's wedding is so much more important. I'm so proud of him. I can't wait to turn his room into a closet! Hehe! Well, we watched the movie Fireproof awhile ago and I encouraged him to Fireproof his marriage. My family is so blessed and it's wonderful to have another addition to the family. The movie FIREPROOF is by far one of the best Christian movies out there. I've always thought that firemen were pretty kwel ;) but this movie just made them cooler. It was listed as, "The #1 Inspirational Movie In America." Kirk Cameron did a really good job. The moral of the story is, never leave your partner behind. There was only one part in the movie that I didn't really agree with but overall it was a pretty good movie. I love good Christian movies :) Check it out!
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Last Monday I made a vow to God to dedicate 15minutes out of each day to read a scripture and have a talk with him. I know that 15mins is not a lot of time but what started out as 15min turned into 30min and then I just didn't want to stop. All the time in the world belongs to God. I started reading the scriptures with a dictionary in my hand. I used to think that my father was strange for doing this but I guess it kinda rubbed off on me. I'm realizing that although I've been in the church all my life, there is still so much that I don't know. This Summer off is going to be a renewal of my faith. I want a closer walk with Jesus. It's amazing how his love is everlasting and unconditional. He kept me through so many situations even when my mind was not on him. I let so many things distract me and get me off focus but even when we don't always do what we should, God is always there watching over us. I praised God for forgiving me of my sins and having mercy on me. I thanked him for opening my eyes to see situations that were not good for me. I went back and thanked him for things he had done in the past that I didn't even deserve. I asked him to cleanse me and protect me. I'm so happy that he keeps loving me Sometimes when I'm going through the devil will try to confuse me and convince me that God isn't there but God keeps proving himself to me over and over. Sometimes I'll read a scripture at night and go to church the next day and my Dad is preaching on it or I will hear it in a song. To me that is God's way of saying "I'm here." I know now that what the world has to offer can't compare to what God has for us. I've gotten to the point where I really HATE sin. It ruins your life. God's mercy is sweet and compassionate. Satan's mercy is cruel. Lies, deception, shame, and filth is what he offers. He wants to destroy and God wants to rebuild. I can deal with the persecution from others because it will all be worth it when I see Jesus! I was so glad to have the house to myself today. I walked around worshiping God for being who he is and that's a redeemer, a healer, a savior, an all-knowing, and powerful King of kings. I really mean to strive for righteousness. I won't let anything keep me from God- not friends, money, men or finances. I can admit that there was a time when I didn't listen to the advice of others that I know now God had sent to advise me but I praise God for allowing me another day to repent and get it right. So, no longer will I stress over situations in this life because God holds my life and whatever he decides, I will accept. What God has for you is a million times better than anything anyone could ever offer you. Thank you, Jesus!
Psalm 103 (King James Version)
1Bless the LORD, O my soul: and all that is within me, bless his holy name.
2Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits:
3Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases;
4Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies;
5Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle's.
6The LORD executeth righteousness and judgment for all that are oppressed.
7He made known his ways unto Moses, his acts unto the children of Israel.
8The LORD is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and plenteous in mercy. 9He will not always chide: neither will he keep his anger for ever.
10He hath not dealt with us after our sins; nor rewarded us according to our iniquities.
11For as the heaven is high above the earth, so great is his mercy toward them that fear him.
12As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us.
13Like as a father pitieth his children, so the LORD pitieth them that fear him.
14For he knoweth our frame; he remembereth that we are dust.
15As for man, his days are as grass: as a flower of the field, so he flourisheth.
16For the wind passeth over it, and it is gone; and the place thereof shall know it no more.
17But the mercy of the LORD is from everlasting to everlasting upon them that fear him, and his righteousness unto children's children;
18To such as keep his covenant, and to those that remember his commandments to do them.
19The LORD hath prepared his throne in the heavens; and his kingdom ruleth over all. 20Bless the LORD, ye his angels, that excel in strength, that do his commandments, hearkening unto the voice of his word.
21Bless ye the LORD, all ye his hosts; ye ministers of his, that do his pleasure.
22Bless the LORD, all his works in all places of his dominion: bless the LORD, O my soul.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Stacy quickly showered and dressed, choosing a black wrap dress and pumps. She had called her boss earlier and took the day off. It was no way she was going to work under all of her stress. Mr. Milner had agreed and had given her the day off. He was a kind old man with brown skin and toffee colored eyes. Unlike a lot of her co-workers, his smile always reached his eyes. He was in his late fifties and happily married to a retired teacher. His hair was salt and pepper gray and rarely did she ever see him without a shirt and tie. He was somewhat of a father figure to her and she always enjoyed being in his company. She felt a little guilty taking a sick day at such short notice but she had to get to the bottom of all this. Besides, Mr. Milner's birthday was coming up on Friday so she would pick up a gift for him while she was out. She felt better about her plan already. She grabbed her purse from her night stand and rushed down the stairs. She didn't know what time the laboratory opened on Wednesdays. Breakfast would have to wait...
Jack Milner closed his briefcase, stood up and straighten his tie. He had started this company on his 24th birthday. He didn't have a dime to his name, just a dream and a vision. He had gone far. He had everything a man could ever want in life. He was working in his dream career as a Director at one of the most well-known publishing agency in the state and he made good money. He had married his true love 34 years ago and she was still as beautiful as the first time he laid eyes on her. He never had a daughter but he was blessed with 2 sons. The oldest son, Nathaniel had married and started his own family. However, Tony the youngest son had yet to marry. He wished that he would settle down with a sweet girl like Stacy. He recalled when he first met Stacy. She had come to him fresh out of Junior college. She was a persistent and hard working girl with big lost eyes. There was something missing. Later as their relationship developed he learned that her father had passed away when she was 12yrs old in a fatal car crash. She had witness the accident but never emotionally recovered from it. She was protective of her mother who had turned to alcohol to deal with the lost. Jack had decided to take her under his wing and she had been with the company for quite some time now. She had always confided in him. While he made his way to the conference room for his meeting, he wondered why today she hadn't...
It was 12:30 in the afternoon and he and his partner had already made one drug bust. His partner Mike was like a frat brother to him. He had taken a bullet for him back in September. They normally ordered in for lunch but today they had decided to celebrate. There was a new Hamburger joint that had just opened on Lincoln Street. It wasn't the classiest place but it would do the job. As he turned into the parking lot he spotted the black Lexus sc10 convertible. The driver hurriedly backed into a No Parking Zone area. Justin looked out towards the hamburger joint and then back at the shiny car. He shook his head. "You gotta be kidding me?" Mike got out of the car, stretched and headed towards the front door of the Restaurant. "I'll leave the light work to you. I can't work on an empty stomach." He turned to look at the convertible again before going inside. "Looks like a bougie one to me. I'll order a round of drinks cause it looks like you're gonna need it." He listened on as Mike cracked up on his own joke. Neither Mike nor Justin drank alcohol. It slowed you down. Thinking fast came with the job. Mike always avoided giving women tickets and Justin would rather go up against a drug Lord any day. He got out of the car and looked both ways before crossing the street. Shanadoah women were crazy...
Stacy checked her purse to make sure the letter was inside. She would have it screened for fingerprints. Someone would be sure to help her in the Lab. She was lost deep in thought when she heard a tapping sound on her car window. She looked up and squinted at the tall figure standing beside her door. He wore shades and a agitated expression. Clearly he was handsome. She wished she could see his eyes. She hated cops. Her curiosity wore off and she became annoyed. He rotated his pointing finger, signaling for her to roll down her window. "Yes, officer." she replied. "You do realize that this is a No Parking Zone?" Her heartbeat quickened. She knew that voice. How did she know that voice? She opened the car door and stood in front of him. "Look lady, get back in your car." She took one step backward and lost her balance. The officer reached out and grabbed her just as a vehicle zoomed passed. "Do you have some kind of death wish or something woman?" The officer stared at her behind his shades. "If you don't calm down, I'm taking you down for resisting an officer." She was tired of men calling the shots. In the last 48 hours it seemed that none of them could be trusted. She lifted her foot half way off the ground and kicked him as hard as she could...
Justin doubled over in pain. This was ridiculous. She was beautiful but by far the craziest woman he had ever met...
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
I'm also reading the self help book below. It covers like EVERYTHING! Like- Health, Fitness, Eating right, Happiness, Beauty, Style, Sex, Money, Relationships, and Home. I found some helpful information on all of those categories. There was only one that I had to skim over! lol! Yeah, but the Fitness section was pretty cool :) I'm looking forward to trying some of the workouts... I guess? NOT! lol! But I learned how to "steam away" sinus troubles which is really helpful considering I have sinus troubles. Sniff, sniff... :) I had mixed thoughts when I got this book but so far it's really good. She starts off asking the question "What am I here for? What is my purpose?" The book is really motivating. She included topics like, "Check Your Motives," "Do What You Love," and "Dream Big!" So, yes. I can get with that :)
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Friday, June 11, 2010
... Stacy was awaken by the sound of a blaring lawnmower nearby. The neighbors must have started in early today she thought to herself as she listened to the steady hum of her ceiling fan twirling above her. She buried her head into her pillow with full intentions of going back to sleep. Her head felt as if she had been kicked by wild horses. What on Earth had happen to her last night? She couldn't remember. She scratched her head as she pondered the question. It was only then that she felt the bandage that was wrapped around her temples. It all came rushing back to her! The night in the alley. The stranger that had attacked her and the mysterious man who had protected her.
Panic rushed through her body. How had she gotten home? Had someone been in her house!? She set up quickly. All the blood seemed to rush straight to her head. She felt sick. Whoever had brought her home could possibly still be in her house. Did that mean that she was safe or in danger? Clearly she had been unconscious when she was brought home. She remembered the man in the mask. He had saved her. He wouldn't be holding her captive here in her own home? Or would he? She had to get out of here and fast! She felt the bandage at the top of her head and stared in the mirror that was place strategically in front of her bed. Someone had placed the wrap neatly around her head. It was almost... professional? This was crazy! What would she tell the cops?
She slowly placed her feet on the cold wooden floor. She was careful not to make a sound. She hadn't heard any movements in the house but that didn't mean that a criminal wasn't still there. He could have planned the whole thing! He could be downstairs waiting for her. She had to think fast. The stairs was not an option but how else would she get out of the house? She stared at the door praying that the door nob wouldn't turn and reveal a stranger. It would probably be the last person she'd ever see. Think Stacy! Inside she was screaming. She was trapped in her own home!
She looked around her room that was once a place of relaxation and warmth. She couldn't just sit here and wait for him to come and get her! Her eyes wandered over the top of her big red oak dresser set. It had been a gift from her mother. Oh, God! Her dear mother! She fought to keep the tears from falling down her heart shaped face. She choked backed the sobs that threaten to leave her throat. Her tears stung in her eyes. For as long as she could remember it had always been just she and her mother. Her mother would be devastated.
Another female found dead in Shanadoah City. It wasn't uncommon.
She wiped away her tears and peered at her dresser again. Suddenly she had an idea. She could push the dresser in front of the door. That would keep out the criminal and then... hopefully that would give her some time to think of an escape. She knew it wasn't the best idea but she had to do something. She walked slowly to the dresser. As she rested her hands across the top of the wood, she positioned herself to push as hard as she could... her eyes focused on a white piece of paper. It was placed under a bottle of her perfume
The letters were sharp and neat. They seemed to stand out from the white crisp paper surrounding them. Was this some kind of sick joke? She had never seen that writing before... she picked up the paper and began to read it quickly.
You are safe. I did what any stranger would do under last nights circumstances. I found your address in your wallet. I know that you have questions. Forget them. Forget me. DON'T TRY TO FIND ME! You would only be putting yourself in danger. ~B
Stacy jumped at the piercing shrill and vibration that was coming from the front pocket of her jean skirt. The sound had shooked through her whole body. She pulled her blackberry from her pocket and focused on the blue tinted screen. It was an incoming call from Justin. The man she had been anticipating a call from last night. It was ironic. Last night she had been dying to talk to him and now she felt as if she was going to pass out and die any moment from sheer fear. Her chest felt as if it were on fire! She coughed violently. She needed to-BREATHE!! She had been holding her breath while reading the strange letter.
She steadied her hands and pressed the answer button on her phone. Justin's voice came in deep and strong. "Stacy, I've been calling you all night. I was worried when you didn't answer."
Stacy held the phone in a death grip to her ear but she didn't answer. Should she tell Justin about what had happen in the last 24hours? What would he think? She didn't know what to make of her current situation herself. She struggled to come up with a decent response. She couldn't concentrate. I... I ... I gotta go, she stammered as she terminated the call. She knew she should tell Justin or someone but she couldn't... not yet. Not until she had figured things out on her own. There was one main thing on her mind at that moment... She had to find out the identity of the man in the mask. It would be hopeless to involve the cops. She didn't need protection from him anyway. He had saved her life after all and everyone knew that the cops in Shanadoah City were unreliable. She rested her weight on her dresser and peered out her window. She never left her window open. Her bedroom window looked as if it had been pried open. She was on the second floor. There wasn't a tree or stairs leading up to her room from outdoors. This was getting stranger by the minute. She stared out her window as the wind danced beneath her curtain... She would never be able to rest in this home again without answers. She had so many questions. She had to find the man in the mask...
~Justin~ Justin stared at his cellphone as the light flashed off. Stacy was clearly not herself this morning. It was obvious that she was upset. He wished that he could take the day off and comfort her but he had a busy day ahead of him. So many people relied on him to get the job done. His job was his life. He didn't have time in his life for much of anything else. Stacy would be okay and he was sure of it. Besides, women always overreacted. That was mainly why he had decided to remain a bachelor. He needed to remain focus. Unfocused men didn't survive long on the rough streets of Shanahoah City. He strapped on his badge and made his way out the door towards his vehicle. He didn't regret the life he chose. He put his car in drive as he headed towards Shanadoah City Police Station. He stopped at the light as an older pedestrian made her way across the street. Another day of fighting crime he thought to himself as the light turned green. Another day on the streets of Shanadoah City...
Thursday, June 10, 2010
-It feels like my clock is broken and even then it's right twice a day. Being in this holding. Fighting with emotions. What's the matter? You are my source, my strength, my sword, my shield. Lord the miracle that I need is right NOW!-
I know that God is always on time and that he won't put more on me than I can bear so I'm keeping my faith and my JOY. There are so many examples in the Bible of how God came through just when things seemed impossible.
If I could just touch the hem of his garment... I'm totally relating to the picture above based on the story in the Bible about the woman who was sick for years and then she touched the end of Jesus robe and was healed instantly. Notice the foot that's on her... Sometimes I feel just like that! I feel as if things in life are stepping on me trying to hold me down but I'm still reaching out to Jesus. The Bible doesn't say that she was stepped on but I can imagine that it was a struggle for her to reach Jesus through the crowd. I'm encouraged because I know that if God can heal the sick and raise the dead like he did in Luke 8:40-56 then surely he knows about my problems and yours and he knows how to solve them.
Nobody told me that the rode would be easy but I don't believe he brought me this far to leave me. ( I love that song)
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
I am not a big fan of Trinitee 5:7 AT ALL but Sometimes if I can't sleep at night or I'm stressed out about something, I like to look at this video and meditate on God's Love. The pictures all seem to capture the emotions in the song so well. I especially love the picture of the girl looking up with a hand under her chin and a cross behind her- Tear! and the scripture they included was beautiful. Apparently, some random person decided to make a slideshow to go along with the song. Personally, I felt that this was the best video that has ever been made for Trinitee 5:7. I never really liked any of their real videos but this one is good. Kudo's to whoever did the slideshow.
Check it out...
Monday, June 7, 2010
Every girl should have a guy like Landon Carter :)
Sunday, June 6, 2010
OMG! I am soo loving Twitter right Now! Melinda Watts sent me a message! Yay! LOL! Seriously, I listen to her cd everyday. Her voice is amazing. There is a little girl who goes to my church and anytime she has to ride with me she begs to listen to the song- Happy! I keep it on repeat. My favorite part is-
~Everywhere I go, people keep asking me, girl why are you so happy? I know they wonder why but I can't describe it and even when I try, I get so Excited because I'm happy that he loved me, I'm happy that he SAVED my Soul :)!!!~
I totally feel that way!!! I'm soo HAPPY!! HAPPY!! HAPPY!! LOL!
Also, Helen Baylor is one of my favorite gospel singers. Her cd came out before I was born but it's still one of my favorites. I especially love the part when she says,
~I had a praying Grandmother and I knew enough to call on the name of JESUS!~
Love it! These two women are so inspiring :) Check out their cd!
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Thursday, June 3, 2010
I spotted this dress on the dvd cover of kimora's life in the fast lane series ( I love that show by the way :) Below Ashanti is wearing it also. I soo loved her on the movie- John Tucker Must Die. It was soo funny! Anyway, back to the DRESS!! lol! It is ridiculously pricey but it's soo fab! I made two changes in Ashanti's picture because #1 the dress was cut kinda low so I fixed it! LoL! #2 I used to really like the rapper standing next to her but God delivered me from listening to that kind of music. Thank God! So many of the rappers just degrade women and portray them as sex objects but Women ARE a GIFT from GOD and they should be adored and treated with respect! We are elect and precious to God 1Peter 2:5 *You gotta know who you ARE* With that said, I say take back what the devil stole from YOU! Be fashionable but don't get to the point that you are over exposed. I'm a DIVA 4 Jesus! The same goes for the men too! Pull up those pants and what is it with all that bling? lol! Back to the dress. I sometimes ramble on and on when I'm passionate about something. I absolutely LOVE this dress and Ashanti is soo pretty and she wears it well:) So, check out the dress I can't afford :( It cost well over two thousand dollars!! Two Grand!! Yikes!! But it's HOTT! :)->